Regrets…

People always say, live your life to the fullest and have no regrets about anything you have done.  Personally I find that a lot easier said than done.

For the longest time whenever I would think about my past and try to find regrets, I never could find any, I felt like I am where I am based on what happened, so I had no regrets.  However, now, all I seem to find are regrets, in almost every aspect of my past.

Regrets in who I dated and how things ended.

Regrets in job choices and education ventures.

So far, at the time of writing this, I can not think of anything in my past that I don’t regret, even areas of my past when I was truly happy, I am still seeing a little bit of regret in parts of it.

It is amazing the impact and control that one person can have on your life, especially when they are no longer in your life.  Almost every thought is about them, sights, sounds, smells…all trigger thoughts and memories of them.

I feel like my biggest regret ever, was falling in love…yes, it was wonderful while it lasted, but the pain when it was gone is almost unbearable and is just not worth it.

And for those of you from Facebook and Twitter, please DO NOT start sending me messages asking, “Are you ok?”, “What’s wrong?”, etc…because I will simply ignore them.  I do not feel like “chatting” about it or “talking things out”.

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~ by HCDemon on March 7, 2011.